Those who enjoy;

Finals week are approaching, and it is nothing if not a long, tedious and stressful affair. Students in our grade have to take eleven exams for the finals; including the language that you’re majoring in, your social studies elective(geography or economics), your required science subject (chemistry or biology), and one choice from either physics or sociology&culture.

I’m a spanish major myself, and I have physics, biology and economics as my electives. Since biology was notorious for its sheer overwhelming amount of material to study (and also the fact that the topic had to be genetics and heredity), physics for everyone’s collective inability to understand and economics for its complexity, many others with the same electives as I did were reduced to the verge of tears; even without all the other subjects, it was just too much.

Fortunately for me, I was rather blessed as to be able to understand most of the material given to me, and as a result, many of my classmates come to me to inquire about questions that they had while studying the material. I had somehow become the substitute teacher for most of my classmates, and to be perfectly honest, it was a really good feeling. Pride at the fact that I managed to understand something that so many others didn’t, gratitude at the fact that all these people trusted me to know the answer and to inform them accordingly, but also the strange feeling of achievement that came whenever I manage to explain something and the friend would leave with a, “You’re really good at this! Not just the material, but at explaining, too!”

I never minded people asking that of me; I know a lot of people with grades much higher than mine respond to such requests with a, “No thanks, I’m busy and I have a lot on my own plate right now.” But I tried not to do that if possible. Not just because I’ve too frequently been on the other side of such an exchange while in middle school, but also because it really was a win-win exchange. And I liked the feeling too. A lot. So I basically became the go-to person for biology, economics and physics.

In the final days before the actual exams began, it really began to peak. But something interesting happened regarding the issue. On my last period today, I’d basically given up studying for my own material, sporadically interrupted as it was by such questions, and had taken up to chatting with my classmates.

They were both taking economics as their electives, and were part of the social studies branch(as opposed to the science branch in Korean high schools). One of them were basically giving up on economics after a particularly hard question, and was demanding why I, a science branch-er, had better understanding of economics than he did. The other friend was defending my position (while I sat back and tried to claim that no, I’m not that good at economics) by telling the former of my affinity for economics, not just the school subject but in general. I’d once told him that I had read Guns, Germs and Steel and New Ideas from Dead Economists before, and he was saying that ‘she reads these things for fun, you know. She’s really interested in all of it, regardless of her branch.’

I was just sitting back, not sure how to participate in the conversation when the topic was about me, when a friend came over with an economics inquiry. I eagerly explained the relevant terms related to it, how to solve the problems with that information, and had just send her away when I realized my defender from before was looking at me with a curious stare. I asked why was he staring like that. The conversation went something like this:

“You must really like studying a lot, and I mean really.”

“…and whatever gave you that impression?”

“Just now, when you were answering her question? And explaining the material? Your eyes had this sparkle in it. The type that tells you, ‘I am so happy to be here, to be doing this right now. I feel so awesome.'”

Although my friend was a little off on exactly what had captivated me so much in that moment, it really made me think. I chose economics as opposed to geography not only because I hated geography with a passion but because I actually liked economics.

I enjoyed the time I spent in class learning the material, the feeling of achievement whenever I successfully tackled a particularly hard question and got it right. I’m not really sure if I started to like it because I was good at it, or if I came to be good at it because I liked it, but I definitely know that the two things worked as a positive feedback system: I started to put more effort into economics despite it not being particularly necessary for my college admissions, and getting good grades on the subject suddenly wasn’t a hardship anymore, especially compared with when I was in middle school.

Upon this epiphany, I was reminded of the old saying that goes something like this: “Geniuses cannot prevail over the ones who try hard, but even the ones who try hard must admit defeat to the ones who enjoy.” I’m not saying that I’m the epitome of academics or anything even close to that suggestion, but even from my case it is clear. Whatever your motivation for enjoying a subject, once you do, you achieve a level previously unimagined by just trying to ‘study’ a subject.

I’m not saying you should force yourself to enjoy something; if it were possible, such a saying wouldn’t even have a need to exist. But one’s reason for enjoying something need not be complex either – it could even be as simple as a form of attachment following a valiant effort. Heaven knows it worked for me at least. But thinking about that ‘sparkle’, about doing what I truly enjoy – I couldn’t help but feel warm inside, because it managed to reaffirm my passion: communication, and the sharing of information. People have suggested teaching as a legitimate prospect for my future, and to be perfectly honest, I’m not too strongly opposed to the idea either; I suppose we’ll see.

P.S. Finals are three days away and look at what I’ve just done! I really must be reluctant to study

‘active now’ #1

This one is a little something I wrote on a whim, and then got slightly out of hand.
(Just in case – Don’t worry, I haven’t abandoned my other works yet. I’m just desperately trying to distract myself from finals)
A little bit of personal and secondhand experience (or maybe a lot) influenced the general inspiration. To be precise, I was inspired by social networking sites in which a lot of drama can occur!
This probably isn’t going to be too long – three, four parts, tops? Hope everyone enjoys it, though :)

“You cannot be serious.” Helen muttered, running her hair through her auburn locks, glaring at the monitor like it had personally offended her. On the screen, the tiny black script glowed unblinkingly up at her, seemingly mocking her while stating that the object of her affections had been ‘active 1m ago’.

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Movie Review: Maleficent

I had the luck of viewing maleficent at the sixth of June, when my sister had come over to visit. And while I know it’s a bit late and behind in the times, I thought this movie would deserve a proper review :)

I’ll admit, I wasn’t completely overjoyed when I heard that it was going to be a story on how Maleficent was taken wrongly despite being a very nice person. I’d expected a more… to be perfectly honest, a more villain-esque backstory, about how she became evil, not how she became to be perceived as evil. However, despite being initially put down by the setting, I was able to enjoy the movie a lot, thanks to the extremely smart portrayal of emotions, character development, and various themes, albeit with a bit hackneyed plot.

The plot was…. well, I won’t spoil and I’ll try to be unbiased, but it couldn’t be denied that it was indeed a little bit obvious as to where it was going. (My sister and I were literally grabbing each other in expectant panic when the climax of the movie arrived, both of us wishing that it wasn’t going where we thought it was going) Flipping the original notions of good and evil on the character development stage did bring about a pleasant twist in the viewer’s point of view, though. Because in the original Disney animation, we didn’t exactly get a story as to what exactly had happened. Strictly speaking, it would have been unnecessary in the original animation because that movie had been a direct adaptation of an age-old fairy tale, (albeit not so direct as to make it family-friendly) but the characterization in Maleficent, giving an explanation that goes against what we would normally expect, I thought this, again, told us that we shouldn’t take things at face value. If I were to read a bit more into it, I would say that this was also an attempt to break stereotypes.

We grow up – or at least grew up, since I don’t know how parenting has changed in the sixteen-and-a-half years since I was born – reading fairy tales, most of which are very similar to each other. Usually, there will be a castle, and royalty. Occasionally, there will be a brave commonfolk who manages to fight and achieve his way into the realms of the royals, who marries the princess and lives happily ever after. Now, the feminism in this movie is already brought into the spotlight, told as following up the notion of ‘I’m no damsel in distress, waiting for a prince to save me’.(But I’ll admit, feminism-wise, the part that I liked the most wasn’t the ‘I don’t need a man’ attitude, not because it’s not true but rather because I thought it was being portrayed in a rather, much like the plot, hackneyed and over-exaggerated way. That particular viewpoint was better represented in Frozen, in my humble, individual opinion.) However, this movie also rebukes the old notion that the princes and princesses are all good people. Of course, I do observe an increase in stories that start along the lines of: Once upon a time, there was a wicked king, whose kingdom lived in fear of his wrath….and so on. But the fact that the ‘Wicked witch’ is the protagonist, the ‘fairies’ actually incompetent fools, and the ‘royalty’ the antagonistic entity, we are brought to another shift in perspective, that just because it’s a fairy tale doesn’t mean that we have to try to fit ourselves into a certain frame of observance.

The reason why I’d wanted the villain-esque story to be represented was because of the fact that hatred and maliciousness were perfectly human emotions that everyone is capable of having, but at the same time one that is carelessly cast aside. I didn’t want this story to be about a misunderstanding – I wanted Maleficent to be driven by hatred, something that cannot be considered as a misinterpretation of ‘good intentions’. Because sometimes, we in the real world are motivated by hate. We make mistakes, we feel malicious, vicious emotions towards other people, and we don’t feel guilty about feeling that, about feeling ‘human’. I wanted Maleficent to be unapologetic, to be motivated by the vicious emotions that sometimes hit the best of our kind, no matter how nice someone is. And as for that category, I think this movie fulfilled exactly what I had wanted to see.

Book Review: V for Vendetta (about the genre)

A good friend of mine sent me a copy of this book a couple of weeks ago, so I took the liberty of an empty house to rush through this book! I admit, I read through it really fast, so I probably missed a lot of important points and symbolism-ish things, so this is just mainly going to be a rant about how novel(no pun intended) the experience was. :)

I’ll probably do a reread and watch the movie as soon as I’m done with the final exams, and the more content-focused review will come then :) This one is also up on my goodreads account in case anyone wanted a visit. :D

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